Jun 122009

If I live without hope then I am just walking the steps of dying….yes, this world has cruelty and deception. There is pain and imperfection. The battle is nothing new between good and bad. The things of this world that we see and the True Spirit of Life that we search for exist together, yet are entirely seperate and opposite. Black and white. I am gray, with shades and shadows and light. Should I ever be without an imperfection then I will dance and fly unchained as only HOPE remains. Until that Day I am just another reflection, both free and bound, both a witness and a participant. Sophie, aka Michelle

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

Dec 312008

Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24

One day perhaps I will fully understand what it means to walk in complete faith, without fear and second guessing. I don’t question God, or His Son Jesus Christ. I don’t doubt that He wants to bless me with the desires of my heart. I think my struggle is self-will and pride and the errant thinking that if I strive enough over something, whether it be a relationship or a dream or a desire, He will let me have what I want and what I even believe I need. I am learning just how wrong I am………..

I want to share some scripture that I was given a while back  in respect to faith in God when we let fear come in and share living space with the love of Jesus Christ. If you and I will remember His Word He will carry us thru every storm and if we can find the faith within the love He so freely gives us, perhaps we will more fully comprehend the enormity and the awesomeness of walking and living IN that grace and mercy, in Jesus Christ.

Psalm 1:1-3 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night. And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper. For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness. For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall. Psalm 18:28 & 29

God will be the light we need to see thru the darkness of life. We don’t need to grapple for our own solutions when we get scared. He is our comfort. It is through Him that we are able to run through the trials, the troops, the enemies, that beset us…..Even when it ‘s our own actions that land us in that same darkness we fear, He will still be the Light. He will light our candle. By Him we will leap OVER the walls. Any obstacle set before us is an opportunity to let Him be glorified when THRU Him we LEAP over whatever it is that is obscuring our path’s.

Hope in the Lord, not in ourselves.   Be of good courage, be brave-not fearful and He shall strengthen our hearts, our ability to love even though we are afraid. So often when circumstances beat us down and steal our peace we want to rise up and build a fortress around ourselves to protect ourselves from the thing or person that threatens us. This is not condusive to loving our neighbors, much less our enemies.

I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. They looked unto Him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed. This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encampeth round about them that fear Him, and delivereth them. O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in Him. O fear the Lord, ye His saints: for there is no want to them that fear Him. Psalm 34:4-9

Wow. When I read these scriptures it causes me to wonder how and why I allow myself to walk in fear. Is it a weakness in my faith? Do I somehow doubt the Word of God? Yet when I seek Him, He delivers me. EVERY TIME! So even through the troubles and the insecurites and the fear, if we will remember to set down our pride and cry out to God, He will deliver us. And through all of this we learn the awesome fear of the Lord.

Oh that men would praise the Lord for His goodness. Blessed is every one that feareth the Lord; that walketh in His ways. For thou shalt eat the labour of thine hands; happy shalt thou be, and it shall be well with thee.. Psalm 128: 1 & 2

How many of us forget to praise Him? Next time you find yourself standing amidst the rubble of yet another lost dream, another broken relationship, another job or career lost, look up and PRAISE GOD! Praise Him for HIS GOODNESS! It’s not about us. It’s about our faith in Him to be who He is! And He is our blessing. Yet blessed is every man who fears the Lord and walks in His ways. In His ways. Not ours. Not of this worlds. Not after the things of this world that we think we need to be “blessed”. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God.

I am beginning to understand that it is perhaps two aspects which contribute to the rise and fall of man in his/her pursuits. It is one, that we seek after other things to give unto ourselves peace, happiness, comfort, and deliverance. None of these other things will stand. God in His love and mercy knows this and takes every collapse in our lives to be the ONE who never lets go.

The second way of looking at this is simply that if we love God with all our heart, soul, and mind, it would follow that we would in fact seek after Him and His prescence ABOVE everything else, and in so doing, we would in fact find Him. And we would eat the labour of our hands, be happy, and be at peace.

A question or two that I ask myself these days: do I seek God or do I seek the things I want from God?

More scripture I find helpful in dealing with fear and insecurity:

Matthew 11: 28-30
Matthew 6: 25-34
Matthew 7: 7-12
Luke 8: 22-25
Luke 11: 9-13
Luke 12: 22-44
John 15: 1-16
I Peter 5: 6 & 7
II Timothy 1: 7
I Thessalonians 4: 11-12
Colossians 3: 23 & 24
Philipians 4: 6 & 7

Father, I pray for the understanding to fear you; the ability to love you; and the humility to obey you. Father help me to surrender my life to you in every way. Thank you for your Spirit, Father, by whom only is it even possible to enter into your prescence at this moment. Thank You Father, for loving me, for holding me, for your wisdom and mercy in every lesson YOU teach me! I give you my will though it is weak. I give you my life, although it is torn. I am willing, Father, to walk in YOUR HOLY SPIRIT with my eyes open, my ears set to listen for Your Voice in the madness of even this my babylon. I love you Father, oh that to say those words will one day bear no shame in the secret selfishness and fear that I alone can not deliver myself from. I praise you for your infinite grace. That I may one day fully comprehend the depth of your love. In your precious Son, and in my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ, I pray. Michelle